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Selling Happy Pills

Selling Happy Pills

I think this photo came at the right time, and I think it’s more than enough to express how I feel.

You see, all of this isn’t easy, and explaining everything that goes on in my head will never be easy. No one will ever understand because no one has ever spent at least twenty-four hours as me and exactly me. But if there’s one thing I know I can always do and do well, it’s focusing on other people. Infecting others with happiness. Throwing bombs of laughter at other people’s faces.

Let me say it like this: you see, when I was a kid, my mom had this store, and there are times when I had to watch over the store and sell stuff whenever customers would come by. The only rule my mother gave me was not to eat anything at the store because they were all for sale and were for customers only; that if I ever need something to eat, I should just go to the kitchen and grab some grub instead of eating things from the store that are meant for customers and only the customers. And that’s the thing: you have something, but you’re not allowed to have it. It’s intended for other people.

And that’s what I’m good at. I’m a mess, a mental wreck, and honestly I have no idea what to do with myself so I sell happiness, and a helping hand, free of charge, even if I end up having none of it in the end. They say you can’t give what you don’t have, but I think they’re wrong. I figured if I helped enough people, made them laugh hard enough and just gave them enough of my time, it would distract me from the real issue pushing me down, which is my mind. It didn’t matter if I still had to go through my own problems alone. The fact is that as long as I was being thoroughly distracted by other people, I was perfectly okay. I guess now I know I was wrong; that I could lean on my friends as much as they’ve been leaning on me, even if it’s all new to me and I’ve been so used to riding solo when it comes to my problems.

I shouldn’t think this way. No one should think this way. Everyone should be able to at least get a taste of the happiness they’re selling to other people.

Perhaps this is also why I take great pride in my loyalty, because in all honesty, it’s really all I can offer my friends that’s worth anything.

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May 25, the Graduation Celebration

May 25, the Graduation Celebration

Thank you guys for coming and celebrating my graduation with me (too bad there’s no picture of Paul here). I know things are going to change for me soon, but I want to keep you guys around for a long time. I want pictures like these to be one of the first of the many others we’ll collect over the years.

I mean, I hate to sound all faggy, but goddamn it, I love you guys. And thank you so much for everything.

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Achievement Unlocked: College Graduate!

Achievement Unlocked: College Graduate!

May 20, 2014
I finally did it. Bachelor of Science in Computer Engineering, Best Thesis.

This wouldn’t have been possible if i weren’t for my family and the people in helped in supporting me through college, emotionally and financially. I dedicate this to them, and my friends, especially my best friend Meeku, who couldn’t graduate with me this year. Even so, I chose to honor him by putting our agreement into action: raising our fists to the sky as soon as we get our hands on our diplomas.

I don’t know what the future holds, but right now, I’m invincible.

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The Graduates

The Graduates

These are the people I’ll be graduating with this Tuesday. I spent the last four years with them, and we struggled together as a brotherhood even though the years have already changed so many things. I’m still happy that I met them, worked with them, laughed and cried with them, and grew together with them.

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Baccalaureate Mass

Baccalaureate Mass

Today, I realized something. Graduation day is coming, the day I’ve been waiting for since freshman year. And right now it’s coming in so fast I have no idea what to do or how to feel. In just four days, it’s finally over. I can’t wait, but at the same time I don’t think I’m ready.

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“But there was one thing your aunt Robin never was; she was never alone.”
– Ted Mosby, How I Met Your Mother

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“Praying for the gods to have mercy on us all? The gods have no mercy, that’s why they are gods.”
Cersei Lannister

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Holy Shit

Holy Shit

Holy Week pretty much went by more quickly than most weeks I had to go through, probably because I slept through most of it. The first half, though, comprised of our Computer Engineering seniors’ two-day field trip to a lot of places in mostly Central Luzon, which I really can’t recall that well anymore since it has already been days since it happened. Still, I had a great time. It’s the last time my colleagues and I can hang out like that as students.

But what really kept bugging my mind this week is holy shit. Holy shit, holy shit, holy shit. And by that, I mean, “Holy shit, I’m gonna graduate.”

I mean, can you imagine me, Ram, the loudmouthed, brutally frank, poor excuse of a human being, going out and being an engineer and even aspiring to study law? Goddamn. I am in way over my head. I jacked off all throughout college and now they’re letting me leave. I can’t imagine doing anything else other than smoke, insult people, crack dirty jokes and just basically slack off. Well, that’s actually what I did during my internship and that worked pretty well for me.

But I just can’t believe it. Holy shit. If all goes well, I’m gonna graduate, and I’m so scared and excited at the same time. I honestly have no idea what’s in store for me next, but I know I can jack off through it again. And I just can’t think of anything to say but, well…

Holy shit.

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Segment Introduction: Stories I Plan On Telling My Kids

Segment Introduction: Stories I Plan On Telling My Kids

Let me introduce you to one of the things you’ll be seeing on this blog on a regular basis: Stories I Plan On Telling My Kids, and I suppose that no longer needs an explanation. Because if you’re already familiar with the recently concluded TV show, How I Met Your Mother, then you’re also familiar with the many stories Ted has told his children.

Now, I’m only twenty and I really don’t plan on having any kids any time soon, but I just figured that a lot of awesome things have already happened, and I want to write them down so I can never forget them, and eventually I can tell them to my kids in the future, no matter how petty or life-changing, because isn’t that the point? I know this sounds a little crazy, but I believe I have a shitload of stories that are worth telling.

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